One. Am I still dreaming. Good God horrors have ensued from not including this as a first in the routine.
Two is like a double sided check. It's a balance of "am I late?" and "what day is it?" Once I grasp one of these then I can swing into a schedule of meetings or work commitments, the times they start, and calculate how long I have to enjoy my tea.
Today I have thirty more minutes.
I had a huge pang of fear last night on the bus ride home from work. Mostly about my decision to go to the mainland for a month and a half. One of my patterns is to build a foundation and then send my shadow to jerk the rug out from under my feet. Meaning that when things start getting consistent in my life I make sure I'm out. Maybe it's just my defenses.
And I don't regret my decision. Just wondering how it will pan out. Home to come back to, check. Clients love me so they'll be there when I come back, check.
The two big things I feel like I dented are the Pilates course I'm taking, and the Church of Eden filming. My original plan was to audit the Pilates course in March so I really had all the information I spaced out on in January. The resolution will be that I BUST ASS in April and May to take the test before my 6 month time span runs out. Please don't let me waste $1200 of my own money, or anyone's for that matter.
The Church of Eden is a growing connection I definitely want to maintain. Good for me that I'm well liked by the Reverend, and I do a surprisingly good job as his beautiful co-host. So we'll do double filmings till I leave to finish the episodes. Cross my fingers there will be more work with them when I get back.
I'm sooo excited for my trip. I leave in three weeks. San Francisco, and a few other places in California, and Colorado Springs to visit my family.
Something real is happening in my heart and it scares the shit out of me.
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