Monday, August 30, 2010

Doors.


I want to be a scratch and sniff sticker.

Full of color.

Flavorless.

Scents that entice you to reminisce.

Lose your sense in sense. 

Between blinking, passing panes of glass. 

Pains will ease. 

Etch in me your past. 

And I will grant you access.

Believe.

But before you leave...

Breath. 

Laugh.

Ask and you might see.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

distant dreams



My bags are mostly packed. I'm so tired I want to puke. Knowing that after tomorrow this time is a memory nags my heart. Tearing up. Tearing up. Tearing down.

I must reconstruct.

I can't stop crying, and my soul is swimming in churning oceans of glorious torture.

Thank you Ernesto.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Hell yes.

Home made new york strip with sauteed sweet onions and garlic. Rosemary whipped potatoes with crunchy garlic baked on top of a portobello mushroom cap soaked in braggs and dusted with cayenne pepper, with a golden brown gouda and parmesan crust. Steamed organic baby carrots and chopped kale. Brazilian spinach salad with home-made dressing, Waimanalo tomatoes topped with feta cheese. 

Glass of cabernet sauvignon.

Great company.

Helicopter photo shoot in the morning.

Hell yes.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

word associations


Every "I miss you".

Cuts my heart .

Divided into three .

The desire to believe, the truth of experience, and the voice of fear .

Even if one piece is bigger ,

they all still bleed ,

longing to be together once again. 





making friendly.

Hurried goodbyes, but not the real kind.

If this is the icing on the cake, I'll sing my mistakes.
Frosting so thick frostbite kicks me into cutting mode.

Reload, reload, we owed it to ourselves to know.
Inventive roads along the process forging each slice.

Cold and creamy, a condensed disastrous dilemma.

fight or flight.

cake or pie.

truth or lies.

or just lack of trying.

And now I'm crying because it's my party,
but the candles won't go out till the house burns down.

See, stubborn as I am there's validity in this hesitancy.
Something within me issuing a warning.

Maybe if I stand through the smoldering...
I'm sorry, were we celebrating?
 because you don't seem too worried.

and I'm just an ice cream cone away from freezing.
even through the flames that continue to lick my bleeding.

it's tiring.

to hear one thing.

I know what you're saying, so show me.

Please don't send your shadow to tell me you miss me.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

plucking choices


I love me, I love me not...


...I want it, I want to run...


...back to solitude from the sun.
moon so cool
never burned no one.

Thursday, August 12, 2010


jealousy is a storm.


my body is a cage
that keeps me 
from dancing with 
the one I love
but my mind
holds the key.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010